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I'm still here... If anyone's wondering... Still lying in the void... Is it really void? Or am I the hole that devours me whole Like a snake coiled in time consuming itself in an endless circle Until? Until it is void Void of its essence The essence that bathes it's pure scales in gossamer rain Its emotions dried away in silence If they ever did line its icy coal heart Or maybe my eyes are too far gone Like my mind that wastes in drifting time The silence is so loud in my deafened ears I almost forget I'm alone The silence is so clear So sharp, stabbing Its screams like hurricanes in angered pain Have you yet to forget me

I want you dead I want you so far gone that even your name is littered in lost emptiness I want to kill you Your blood dripping into my black nails Like hallow hate runs through my boiling ink veins Your breath cut by my talons' venomous grip So that I see the lights leave your charcoal eye's heart I wasn't always like this No I was happy If the word was ever real If it ever held any true security in its faded ink letters But then you took it Like a thief concealed in night's cloak So sly So unseen by my white s pupil's eye Now I want you dead Gone The words roll off my tongue with such pure simplicity I'm not mad I was ma

Deep far in the silver tree's woods Hidden behind the great willow's arms Is where I lie to the fairies in bath Where you will find me clothed in dust But if you do dare to look You will find me in time's grasp Frozen in warm dew's breath And clothed in fantasy's silk hold I did love the away the green trees swayed When I stayed in your strong gentle arms Through dusk and noon's wake But in their warmth I grew too attached To the love you had birthed in my hurt marked arms The love I had tried to run from So I fled from my love's heart once again So I could be free from your protective hold So I could not hurt your sweet rose

Broken bones line my skin They clink to my shallow body Heavy hallow neck Drenched in dead blood I step into the chalk floor Its blackness covered in white Letting it soak into me Fill me up to the brim in white coldness It chokes me...yet I'm frozen in limbo Here is where I left her Where I shed myself away Like a snake coiled in silver time She was stronger than this weak body Its limbs withered and gone away Its skin like the surface of old skimmed milk But she...she was strong I was strong But I shed it all away For you Though she was beautiful in her unwillingness to love I let her die in this dark abyss In this whit

It's dark It's been dark My body sticks to the wall Because of blood that's fallen from me My feet freeze against cold Water's edge That's been my company I have been here many times before In my dreams My nightmares They whisper as they leave They're done Trying to break me Silence is the lonely hand in the darkness that tries to pull me under Under sorrow Pain Death But the worst part Is even darkness is better than my agony It's sad to think I was once happy here Well voices turn into shouts of fury And words begin to sting like a whip on my bare skin You have deserted me Left me to die But... But... I am still her

I'm shrouded in complete darkness So much of it that I'm choking in it That I'm drowning in its ink ocean Darkness It lingers in the air like an unwanted touch Then I see them The red eyes flecked with black fire Fear shots through my body like lightning through a field of blood roses My heart batters against my chest Like a prisoner trying to escape My ink hair stands straight on my neck Like electricity runs through my veins instead of blood Fear I'm frozen where I stand The darkness that I once shamed is now my only protector A thin curtain protecting me from a danger indefinable My eyes don't blink I feel my heart through

Life It's fragile Like a thin glass rose It takes so much to create and preserve But it only takes an ounce of pressure to break it To completely destroy this fragile gift This beauty This essential piece of us Then it's gone So suddenly It's shocking It shatters on the stone ground Destroying itself and the ones who created it The ones who delicately built this frail rose Those who sacrificed and loved this gift of life Just Like That Within a blink of an eye it's Gone Like it was never created The millions of pieces of broken glass Shatter before my blood shot eyes Glass shots at my bare legs But I don't move I let

I see you there in front of me The inches I can count on my broken fingers Yet you are the farthest away from me Like a allusion Or a vision Only to disappear by the touch You don't seem to see me I'm invisible to you Like a ghost concealed in darkness I feel that way in your eyes Like you see a faint outline, but never a full picture Do you hear me when I talk? For you give me silence as your only response Do you feel my touch on your skin? For you only glance past me like a disoriented doe I tell myself to leave you in your daisy chain coven But I cannot because you are my dew eyed beauty Who lies with flowers in her light

The eye is a mirror It is a portal in a sense To another world Where in it you see reality Or you can shelter a ubroken mask A mask that shields you from pain It's a window to your heart A crystal clear reflection of your heart's true desire A dark hallway that leads to your soul A soul that may be broken And shielded by a lie A lie so dark and deep That your eye cannot hold it For it bears the truth within its iris The lips may whisper a lie so inraveled in the dark But the eye will shout a truth so pure and rich It is incapable of deception And reveals every hatred You cannot lie within the eye For it will show and break

They say I'm crazy... I'm not crazy... Am I?... The walls are closing in on me They're getting smaller, I swear And I'm trapped I don't like being trapped I'm trapped here And the voices are getting louder I scratch my neck And draw blood on my fingers My breathe is short And I'm shaking against the padded wall Eyes bulging And my fingers frantically moving and twisting into each other I'm not crazy I've never been crazy! "yes you are, yes you are." The voices chant like a clock Ticking, telling me something is going to happen What?! "NO! NO, I'M NOT!!!GET OUT OFF MY HEAD!" I yell out loud They're probably watching me Fr